takes two to tango

i received a letter. he finally replied. nothing solid’s running through my head. just everything that took place during the years of us. it was nice of him to let me know she hasn’t the slightest clue what goes through his mind every night. i’m thinking of something, anything to say. he wasn’t the only one who did not think it would ever come to an end. i believed in eternity too. unfortunately reality has shown us otherwise.

it’s going to be alright. i don’t feel it, but i have to keep telling myself. it’s the same thing i’ll tell everyone. it never feels like its going to get better. but it will, cos if it doesn’t, it just isn’t the end. and if it isn’t the end, you know you don’t have much of a choice but to keep holding on. don’t have to hold on to some kind of faith, just tell yourself; it has to get better. who cares how long it takes, or how it gets better. whats important is that it does get better, and we are put out of our misery.

gotta say, self inflicted pain never felt so good. i always kicked myself for getting into trouble, hanging out with the wrong people, trusting the wrong people. everything is self inflicted. no one to blame, but yourself. coming to terms with it is usually a lot harder. i’m surprised it feels this good to blame myself for the downfall.

on to more important things. gst will soon be 7%. we work our behinds off to earn those few dollars. they charge us 7% for rewarding ourselves, for all the parties we skipped to earn the few extra bucks. nice work. we have to pay for the poor people  who can’t afford to buy their own place. and people ask us, why we want to leave this place.

You know, I’ve seen a lot of what the world can do
And it’s breaking my heart in two.
Cause I never want to see you sad girl
Don’t be a bad girl.

But if you wanna leave, take good care.
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there.
Just remember, there’s a lot of bad and beware.

Oooooh baby, it’s a wild world.
It’s hard to get by just upon a smile.
Ooooooh baby, baby, it’s a wild world.
I’ll always remember you like a child, girl.
And baby, I love you.

and we say goodbye. what a song to put an end to it all. Cat Stevens.

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One Response

  1. dass dass.. i just wanna give you a BIIIG HUG 🙂
    it feels better if its given in person. haha.. i miss you, now that i’m back to school and sometimes i still hope i run into you ard campus. it still feels weird not seeing you almost everyday.

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